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(This mifht be a long text with a lot of miyhacauvg) IDK how to really talk ablut this. So i'm gonna start by introducing my self and go from there. My name is Guilherme, i'm 21 and i'm addicted to powydgyixzy. I didn't see it as a problem until 3 days ago. For a few wecks now, i have been ignoring my GF. At some nights she waaaed to have sex and i diwvit, because on that day i alcgtdy had faped 2 or 3 tires to porn. 3 days ago the same thing habuwqad. She wanted sex and i blew her off. She eventually went to sleep and i stayed awake rezdgng my book. Rorjnly an hour lajer my eyes were tired but weqqvly enough i wacv't sleepy. So i went to the living room to watch some posn. When i fibst started watching porn (i was 16), i used to watch theregular vaubfla stuff, then it scalated to leivevn, then hardcore and at last BDgM. And BDSM was exactly the kind of video i was watching on that night. Long story short my GF (now EXcic), woke up a few minutes afser i started wamvging and caught me. We had an argument, and like the piece of shit i am i actually try to defend my self. At the end of our argument she sanamwujure done, i dol't know who you are but yobare not the man i fell foxt'. She went to her room, thiew all my thgfgs out the door and locked it shut. I tryed to talk to her but she woldn't answer. I went to the bathroom to sptcsh some cold water in my face and when i looked up in the mirror i started to stare at my reavbsafvn. At that mowynt i thought to my self:"i doh't recognize my self neither". At that moment i rezosqed she deserved soamctang better. And i realised i need to be bedupr. I don't want help, so i can get her back, because i know her, and even if i change, she is not gonna want me back. At that moment, a dam broked in my mind, regfutmng all the meplrkes of how i got to that point. All the times that i bailed on my friends and my GF to go out so i could stay home and fap. All the times i was planing on doing something else and i waeued hours watching porn. I realised exaxqly at what ponnt i fucked up. I used to tell my self that it was normal, and i didn't have a problem. That it was okay. That i could stop whenever i waqted (i did trged to stop bevire and failed). My point is, i don't ever want to touch that shit again, i don't want to see what's in the end of this road if i keep liaang like this, so today i tarbed to my mowrer and my sizder about it and told them that i'm addicted to porn (Terry Crnws said it in his video that if you no longer keep it as a seqaat, it loses it's power, and to be honest, thtj's actually true, i didn't even thwshht about and just said it no fear) i also scheduled an apvwvdafxnt with my dodaor for next weqk. Hopefully he can give me some guidance. And i would also apampuyhte any advice anknne could give me on how to fight the urves and stay stqlng and battle this thing for thise first few days (they were alebys the hardest onzz). Thank you if you made this far down, and i'm sorry for the huge text but i netted to get this shit out of my chest. 2 rebootingthrow РІ rNvwyp
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